The closing minutes of her long-awaited televised special has Jaycee Dugard climbing into a hot-air balloon.
It was second on a list of things she wanted to do if she ever escaped 18 years of imprisonment in a madman's frenzied backyard warren of tents and sheds outside Antioch. It was a list she wrote and kept hidden from captors Phillip and Nancy Garrido.
The first item on the list was already checked off: Her mother, Terry Probyn, was at her side.
ABC News' exclusive interview by Diane Sawyer, which aired Sunday, was occasionally revealing -- many details surfaced in two years' worth of media reports and Dugard's own grand jury testimony -- but it added the seldom-heard Dugard's voice to a story of survival that gripped the world.
"Can't steal anything else. Can't steal our love for each other. Couldn't take that away," Dugard said, directly addressing Phillip Garrido. "Good wins."
Dugard, sporting long, dark-brown hair -- she was blonde on fliers and in artists' age-lapse sketches distributed after her June 1991 disappearance from South Lake Tahoe -- spoke coolly when discussing the habitual rape she endured at the hands of Phillip Garrido, who fathered two daughters from that abuse.
"(I) don't feel like I have this rage inside of me that's building," Dugard told Sawyer. "I refuse to let him have that."
The interview is the only major publicity planned before Tuesday's release of Dugard's memoir, "A Stolen
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Life," accompanied by an audio book she narrated herself.
Dugard, 31, chronicled for Sawyer being kidnapped and whisked to the Garrido home as an 11-year-old.
"The world changed in an instant," she said.
The television special did reveal a videotape of Phillip Garrido singing and playing the guitar with Nancy filming, which authorities believe was a ruse to record children playing in the background. For millions, it was the first time hearing the Garridos' voices; audio recording was banned from the El Dorado County courtroom where they were sentenced to virtual life sentences in prison.
ABC News also obtained Nancy Garrido's recording of a parole visit in which she peppers an officer with distracting banter while Phillip Garrido leads him throughout the house hastily, with Dugard no more than 30 feet away at any given moment. The Dugard saga was a flash point for federal and state parole agents and local authorities, admonished for failing to uncover the captivity.
Former Contra Costa County Sheriff Warren Rupf made an appearance on the program to talk about his agency's own failures in that regard.
"I actually talked to one of the agents," Dugard said about another visit, going on to say that when no rescue came, "they made me feel like they didn't really care."
Dugard also described her inability to escape at any point over 18 years -- including during a visit to the very public Brentwood Cornfest.
"I've asked myself that question many times," she said. "What I knew was safe. The unknown that was out there was terrifying, especially when thinking about the girls."
She thanked two UC Berkeley police officers, Allison Jacobs and Lisa Campbell, whose suspicion of Garrido on campus set in motion her eventual liberation in August 2009.
Dugard told Sawyer that she now carries a pine cone charm on a necklace, as it was the last thing she held before being kidnapped and turned to as a symbol of hope. An image of a pine cone also adorns the minimalist cover of her book and is the emblem of the newly formed JAYC Foundation, which aims to empower victims of sexual abuse.
"Why not look at it and stare it down until it can't scare you anymore," she said.